Stupid Liar

reads Angelina Des Matt Fiona Goh Jie Yun Jonny Tan Junn Mellie Mr CCB Rebecca SIM Canoeing Ting Xuan
Wednesday, April 18, 2012 @ 23:56 What's unfair? What's your definition of unfair? If you think life is unfair, you're right. Cause life is never fair. If it's to be fair, why are there competitions, status, salary difference, grading systems, pretty people, average looking people, plump people, slim people, etc? If everything's decided based on whether it's fair to everyone or not, then no decision can be made. Then may I ask again, what's fair? I don't think I've come across anything that's fair. Have you? If life is fair, then WHY don't I have a complete family? If life is fair, then WHY don't I have my mother alive? If life is fair, then WHY... Life is never fair. Because even if it is, it can never please anyone. back to top :D
Sunday, February 26, 2012 @ 01:03 I don't know how to make Tiff feel better. Because of the stung I got, and my blood pressure increasing ridiculously high, we got forced out of our K2 - 500m finals event. I'm so sorry we couldn't 拚 our 老命 and paddle in for the race like what coach told you to do. I'm so sorry you got to give up the race because of me. I'm so sorry. At least, if something did happen to me right on the spot, you probably wouldn't be feeling like how you're feeling now. probably, I was just hoping something would happen to me, to make me feel better. I'm so sorry because it became a situation where you don't know to get angry at me, or to be sympathetic. I was hoping for you to get angry though. Again, I'm thinking of making myself feel better. I am a selfish asshole. I shouldn't have gone to the first aid post. I should've just gone down for the competition. I... What can I do to make this whole situation better? you trained so hard with me this whole week. you were so excited for this finals. yet I had to be such a wet blanket. I disappointed every single one of you. I'm so sorry.. back to top :D
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 @ 00:55 Seriously. 21 years of Valentine's spent being single. Tsktsktsk. Not a good sign. back to top :D
Sunday, January 22, 2012 @ 15:34 最近比较烦, 比较烦, 比较烦~~ Prelims is next month, and exams are in less than 4 months' time :/ And, tsk. Don't wanna talk about it. back to top :D
Sunday, January 15, 2012 @ 22:47 Today. I kinda miss mom :I back to top :D
Thursday, December 29, 2011 @ 17:06 it kinda sucks how you can't fall asleep because you're thinking of him, and when you're finally asleep you dream of him. FML. back to top :D
Sunday, December 25, 2011 @ 13:40 Picture speaks a thousand words. back to top :D
Friday, December 23, 2011 @ 18:47 xmas chocs Wanted to prepare the chocs tonight and give it to the team tomorrow. But because of the never-ending rain today, training has been cancelled tomorrow for there is water discharging. Guess I've more time to go get a wrapper for Tiff's elephant, and more Royce' chocs for the team on Tues. The 3 Royce' nutty choc I bought today, one shall be left at home. The other 2 shall be for THEM, the sweet bunch of people! :) And, sighhhh, he is taking forever to reply me. I now find myself falling too deep into this. always affected. back to top :D
Tuesday, December 20, 2011 @ 01:36 everyday I ask myself. Should I? Or should I not? back to top :D
Tuesday, December 13, 2011 @ 00:22 got a feeling he's interested in someone else major sad face! BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF ME BLOGGING! I'm blogging because, I FREAKING RAN 13mins 59secs FOR MY 2.4KM!!! I was just another 8 split seconds away to 14mins flat. HAHAHAHA, so happy. But quite disappointing, feels like I can run faster, but my body feels damn nua. And sigh, the day just didn't end like how I expected. And he texted because I text him first. again. And he just tells me he's tired. I think I should give up. Really. I should not take in his random sweet words anymore. It's not doing me any good. back to top :D
Sunday, December 11, 2011 @ 02:39 the actual day of turning 21 It's really nice to be able to tell myself I had a great time today. A day well spent. No, it wasn't with my family because now isn't the right time to do a proper celebration or dinner or stuff BUT I understand and respect them. No, it wasn't with the usual Secondary school lovelies who were there for me whenever I feel awful BUT I had a nice and full advanced birthday dinner laughing away. It was a day spent with the team, the canoeing team I wouldn't dare to imagine my university life without them. They are another bunch of nice people you NEED to know! First, the weather is really good today though I'm a little burnt, but who's not! Then, I felt so much feelings in a afternoon... 1) the shockingly big present (a speaker set) I received from Kelvin, Kang Wei, Brandon and Guan Hui. 2) a 10 km time trial for seniors, and experienced paddlers (I really don't think I deserve to be an experienced paddler) 3) having a ACJC raptor K1 on the verge of sinking every 2km done and gave up at the 6km to change to another kayak 4) changing into a NTU raptor K1 which has its footrest quite high and tilted at a weird angle 5) because of that I had been rather angst and frustrated with myself for clocking a bad timing 6) feeling really weak upon completion of the 10km 7) did 2 sets of 200m, 175m, 150m, 125m and (100m for the last set) sprints 8) capsized on the 2nd of 150m sprint and was afraid I would die from suffocation because the water just rushes in everywhere when I was still panting from the sprint and overturned all too suddenly for me to react fast 9) feeling the occasional tiredness on my left arm and it really feels like crap Wasn't it an eventful afternoon? Then we went McDonald's to have the 1-for-1 filet-o-fish for dinner, had a surprise ice cream cake they bought from Swensen's that arrived from over my head to the front of my view, everyone did their best to help finish the cake within 10 mins because we're not suppose to have it in McDonald's. And watched 'Already Famous' that has laughing points and sweet moments. This is not the end! After some of them left for home, Kang Wei drove us to have kway chap and dau huey, and then send each one home safely. Such a day, don't you envy? IT SURE MAKES ME LEARN TO CHERISH MOMENTS WITH EVERYONE AGAIN :) gifts I'd received: angbao from lovelies, handmade card and developed photos from yeobo, Haruki Murakami's 1Q84, speaker set, body shop bath gel, a sweet notebook, and a whole bunch of loving people ❤❤❤ back to top :D
Thursday, December 08, 2011 @ 21:01 today, I made the most coward decision. was there earlier in the afternoon, but didn't see anyone there, so I went Harbourfront, looked for portable chargers but did not get any and spent some time in a bookstore. As usual, I ended up spending on books. So, after that, I went back there. And... I actually turned back and walked away when I saw them. The first thing that came to mind was... I don't want anyone to be unhappy. So I walked away. I was so afraid of facing them. back to top :D
Thursday, December 01, 2011 @ 00:18 TOPIK test results Can't find the results for last year's badly done test but! THIS YEAR I PASSED TOPIK TEST! SO FREAKING HAPPY CAN! Like... got the better grade for beginner's test! Would love to go and try taking Advanced level but.. the test date is too near uni exams. So happy, so gonna work hard and do unsupported guy's pull ups! back to top :D
Monday, November 28, 2011 @ 10:36 The worst dream I've ever had is seeing you date a plump girl, and caring for her in front of my eyes. How did I even end up in there, opposite you two?! back to top :D
Thursday, November 24, 2011 @ 00:35 Wah, I feel so fucking useless. The weights I carried for today's circuit is lighter than last week's! Totally W.T.F bloody sad. Also, didn't manage to finish abs roller when we all started at the same time.. back to top :D